Phobias

[Uncle Kenny]

I feel like, if Nami didn't explain her reasoning, it's because she didn't want to share her reasoning for her phobia. And if that's the case, she shouldn't have to explain herself. A phobia, by definition, is an irrational fear. It should just be left at that.

As for me, I'm deathly hemaphobic. When I was younger it was so bad that I couldn't even hear or see the word "blood" without feeling squeamish. But since then, now it's mainly just when I give blood. I absolutely cannot stand giving blood at all, it makes me completely irrationally scared. I can't even take it when they check your pulse and apply pressure to your wrist, I can't even take my blood pressure without feeling nervous. And no matter how I rationalize it, it never seems to get better, even though I do subject myself to donating blood on a fairly regular basis.

I'm also afraid of demons. Though not nearly as afraid as I am of giving blood.

[Sakonosolo]

If she doesn't want to explain it it's fine, I don't want to be an asshole like that.

[Nami]

And here I thought I could get away with it. Gonna put it in spoiler tags, might be nsfw and it's early in the morning so forgive me if it doesn't make much sense.

Spoiler:

The fact that I'm shaking already by purely thinking of a good enough of answer should show that I'm really afraid of it.

What fedcom said about being naked. Being naked makes me afraid. Vulnerable. Exposed. Insecure.
There's that.

Also I'm afraid of flashbacks. As some of you might already know from the confessions session thread: I was sexually abused over weeks when I was younger and also almost raped on a playground.I was around 5/6 back then.

When you have sex, you are completely naked. Not just in the literal sense. There's no acting out of it. Who you really are will come to light. How you moan, how you move, what you say, what you want from the other person. You are naked, not just your body. Your whole being.
Sex is something where you completely lose yourself, in a good way. Where you should be completely open. There comes a point, where you just grave for more while you're at it and where you lose all control.

Also I'm afraid of doing something wrong or not good enough Or just being plane boring. Or moaning too loud

.. And I can't write much more about it as I'd have to reveal stuff (not just about myself) that I really don't want to reveal.

@Sai
Gonna change it soon.

[Sai-chan]

You don't have to change it.
I just can't look at it, haha.

[Nami]

one more thing..

Spoiler:

I guess I will never be able to understand how you can just jump around from bed to bed. It's just so weird to me.
Sex for me will forever be an act of love and trust. Something special. Becoming one. I simply cannot understand how you can have or want something like that just with anyone... How you can be so open with your own body. How you want to be intimate, seeing, feeling, smelling, tasting their body with anyone...
I sure as hell don't want to become just another body to someone I truly love and trust.
No, I'll never understand that. It's enviable and gross at the same time for me.

[Drayenko]

I... agree with you on that...

[Hekti]

Yeah this one-night-stand-mentality is weird and one of the things I'll never understand. But I won't judge people who do this on a regular basis. It's just not my kind of thing.

[Sakonosolo]

And here I thought I could get away with it. Gonna put it in spoiler tags, might be nsfw and it's early in the morning so forgive me if it doesn't make much sense.

That makes sense. I would say that, for the most part, it goes deeper than just sex though. The fear of vulnerability seems to be the root of it. Thank you for indulging me though so I don't appear like a creep .

[Nami]

That makes sense. I would say that, for the most part, it goes deeper than just sex though. The fear of vulnerability seems to be the root of it. Thank you for indulging me though so I don't appear like a creep .

It might be one of the roots yes, but there's more to it than just the vulnerability part. As if that part wouldn't be bad enough already on its own ;P

[Mokenda_mint]

I have this weird issue with constricting elements (such as bandaids, joint braces, etc) I have a fear that something's going to cut off the circulation to an appendage or limb and I'll end up losing said body part. It's even gone to the point of me removing splints from sprained/strained injuries due to the fear becoming so overwhelming. It really sucks too, because I've gotten leg injuries before and they had a hard time recovering because of this.

[Romani94]

Guess I have a phobia of airplanes. Whenever I arrive to the airport I feel butterflies in my stomach. Though I travelled on planes a couple of times and feel comfortable with it whenever everything is normal. I would get scared when the plane starts shaking; I don't know why that happens but damn, how I hate that, especially when I have a food in front of me.
But the worst part is during take off or landing: I tense up when that happens and close my eyes because I'm scared that the plane will tear up and explode just like what happen in that movie Final Destination.

[LaCaSiNa]

I absolutely hate it when my emetophobia prevents me from sleeping.

Last night I went without sleep until 7:30am. The nauseating rumble throughout my insides and overwhelming dizziness were bad enough on their own, but mixed with complete exhaustion it was just unbearable. My eyes refused to stay open and yet there was no way I could relax from all the shivering and waves of queasiness. Laying down made everything feel worse, so I just sat on my bed, a blanket wrapped tightly around me, but offering little comfort as I felt so awful it made me want to weep. I must've dozed off between 7:30am and 9am, but after that I was pretty much glued to my trash can, 110% sure I was going to vomit and not daring to move a single muscle. I actually hoped that it would happen, because then the nausea might be over in one disgusting moment. But alas it never did and here I am, afraid of eating breakfast in case the nausea comes back to haunt me. (I haven't eaten in 14 hours so I'm not sure if there can still be something left in my stomach... but I'm still not feeling normal so I''m not taking any risks.)

And to top it all off, I have that job interview today!

FML!

[Uncle Kenny]

Under regular circumstances, you'd want to drink water. If you're truly nauseated and can stand to do this, you could also try drinking pure lemon juice with salt but make sure it's only a little bit. (Like half a cup at most) It isn't the most pleasant drink around but it will clean out your stomach. The absolute last resort would be to drink prune juice... but that offers up a different kind of problem. At that point it would be choosing between the lesser of two evils.

I'd just recommend the lemon juice with salt, it works most of the time. I hope you feel better soon, Laca.~

Edit: Oh, and definitely eat something. You need to eat in order to truly get back to normal again and be able to concentrate. Even if it's just a slice of bread with nothing on it, that'll be good enough. And I'm fairly certain people don't vomit bread all that often.

[zachri]

Speaking of phobias
Hey Nami
Nami
hey Nami
I can't look at your avatar at all

I'm late but here to second this . u .;;;
just for the sake of it.
y'know.
zombies n shit.
uwgahgkjwg

[Nia]

I absolutely hate it when my emetophobia prevents me from sleeping.

Last night I went without sleep until 7:30am. The nauseating rumble throughout my insides and overwhelming dizziness were bad enough on their own, but mixed with complete exhaustion it was just unbearable. My eyes refused to stay open and yet there was no way I could relax from all the shivering and waves of queasiness. Laying down made everything feel worse, so I just sat on my bed, a blanket wrapped tightly around me, but offering little comfort as I felt so awful it made me want to weep. I must've dozed off between 7:30am and 9am, but after that I was pretty much glued to my trash can, 110% sure I was going to vomit and not daring to move a single muscle. I actually hoped that it would happen, because then the nausea might be over in one disgusting moment. But alas it never did and here I am, afraid of eating breakfast in case the nausea comes back to haunt me. (I haven't eaten in 14 hours so I'm not sure if there can still be something left in my stomach... but I'm still not feeling normal so I''m not taking any risks.)

And to top it all off, I have that job interview today!

FML!

Oh God, I know that feeling *hugs you tightly*
All the nights I didn't dare to move or even breathe fast, fearing it could trigger something... I refused to drink, eat or do anything for a long time afterwards.

I really, really hope you'll be feeling better soon!

[Mokenda_mint]

I absolutely hate it when my emetophobia prevents me from sleeping.

Last night I went without sleep until 7:30am. The nauseating rumble throughout my insides and overwhelming dizziness were bad enough on their own, but mixed with complete exhaustion it was just unbearable. My eyes refused to stay open and yet there was no way I could relax from all the shivering and waves of queasiness. Laying down made everything feel worse, so I just sat on my bed, a blanket wrapped tightly around me, but offering little comfort as I felt so awful it made me want to weep. I must've dozed off between 7:30am and 9am, but after that I was pretty much glued to my trash can, 110% sure I was going to vomit and not daring to move a single muscle. I actually hoped that it would happen, because then the nausea might be over in one disgusting moment. But alas it never did and here I am, afraid of eating breakfast in case the nausea comes back to haunt me. (I haven't eaten in 14 hours so I'm not sure if there can still be something left in my stomach... but I'm still not feeling normal so I''m not taking any risks.)

And to top it all off, I have that job interview today!

FML!

Years back a doctor told my mom the trick to accustoming yourself to fluids again.
Start with 1 tsp of fluid (I reccomend ginger ale) and wait for 15 minutes. If you hold that down you can go to 2 tsp per 15 minutes. Keep gradually increasing until you're able to intake normally again.
For foods, I reccomend nibbling on saltine crackers, they're bland as hell but they hold down good. Rice does too.

I hope you feel better, LaCa <3

[pyromonki]

I'm drastically afraid of heights while unrestriced. (I can ride roller coasters even though I still feel nervous, thanks final destination). But if I'm on a roof or ladder, I'll have a panic attack.

The first time I experienced it, me and my friends were jumping from the roof to the trampoline. Seemed fine from on the ground. When I got on the roof, oh god. My friends laughed at me for a good five minutes until they realized I was seriously not going to move and got me down from the roof.

I hate (not really) my brother because he used to loid it over me when I was younger, he'd pick rides that he knew I would have panic attacks on. I had to ride them because I would get in trouble for "being by myself". Yeah.. because someone's going to kidnap a black kid in Texas.

I also have a rabid fear of completion even though I never want to admit it.

[LaCaSiNa]

Under regular circumstances, you'd want to drink water. If you're truly nauseated and can stand to do this, you could also try drinking pure lemon juice with salt but make sure it's only a little bit. (Like half a cup at most) It isn't the most pleasant drink around but it will clean out your stomach. The absolute last resort would be to drink prune juice... but that offers up a different kind of problem. At that point it would be choosing between the lesser of two evils.

I'd just recommend the lemon juice with salt, it works most of the time. I hope you feel better soon, Laca.~

Edit: Oh, and definitely eat something. You need to eat in order to truly get back to normal again and be able to concentrate. Even if it's just a slice of bread with nothing on it, that'll be good enough. And I'm fairly certain people don't vomit bread all that often.

Pure lemon juice with salt? I'll have to try that one sometime, thanks for the tip! I always do try to drink at least one mouthful of water when I'm nauseated, but the problem is that my gag reflex gets ten times worse whenever that happens. Even swallowing my own spit feels uncomfortable and if the nausea is bad enough to attract panic attack symptoms then it feels impossible. For some reason orange soda helps me too, especially with stomach flu.

Fortunately I did eat something, though at first I was dead set on a half-day starvation. It's funny seeing how you mentioned bread, because that's exactly what I ate! I felt pretty nasty afterwards, but I knew that I would get really weak and shaky had I gone to that interview(and to school afterwards) on an empty stomach.

Oh God, I know that feeling *hugs you tightly*
All the nights I didn't dare to move or even breathe fast, fearing it could trigger something... I refused to drink, eat or do anything for a long time afterwards.

I really, really hope you'll be feeling better soon!

My emetophobic buddy! Thank you for understanding what I'm going through. :)

Years back a doctor told my mom the trick to accustoming yourself to fluids again.
Start with 1 tsp of fluid (I reccomend ginger ale) and wait for 15 minutes. If you hold that down you can go to 2 tsp per 15 minutes. Keep gradually increasing until you're able to intake normally again.
For foods, I reccomend nibbling on saltine crackers, they're bland as hell but they hold down good. Rice does too.

I hope you feel better, LaCa <3

Ooooh, more tips. Ginger ale, got it. I've never tasted it and have no idea whether it's even available here in Finland, but I'll make sure to conduct a little search. Rice was actually what I had for dinner that time, I've noticed that it's pretty gentle on my stomach. Might as well go buy some crackers then, because after reading some "how to prevent nausea" articles they all mentioned crackers. Come at me now, nausea! (... or actually don't)

Thank you all so much for wishing me to get well, it means a lot. :) Sadly this thing happened to me again last night, though it wasn't quite as severe. It only lasted for a couple of hours and I was able to get some sleep, but middle-of-the-night nausea is always accompanied by tiredness and that makes it even worse... What was different this time was the fact that my heartbeat felt really strange and uncomfortable; it was like my regular heart did one powerful beat and then another pulse followed right afterwards, but it came from my left side. It was a new thing for me and I got a little panicked, but breathing slowly in from the nose and out from the mouth fortunately helped. Now that it's morning I'm more or less dizzy and "meh", but I suspect I'll get better once I get to school and have other things on my mind.

[Manny]

Yesterday I was on my Nook with the lights turned off when an earwig just popped onto my screen out of nowhere and started crawling all over it. When I turned around to turn on the lights and try to kill it it disappeared. I looked all over my bed and around my Nook, but, alas, I could not find it. Before going to bed I shook all of my covers, and slept with them tightly surrounding me. I have a phobia that that same earwig is going to crawl into my ear when I sleep and mess with my brains. Whatever that's called, I have it.

[Sai-chan]

I have this weird phobia (I suppose you can call it that--it's an irrational fear, but it's not extreme...) of sleeping with my writsts facing upwards and uncovered. I don't know why but I always feel like my wrists are 'in danger' whenever they're not covered by a pillow or something.